Ooooo, what an awkward post
I am twenty-and-two-months old
Throughout my life, I had three weeks official in a relationship status
and the rest, spent forever alone
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Sometimes, I have this 'desperate for a boyfriend' feeling
Maybe it's more of a attention seeking feeling
When I go shopping alone, most times I get this 'woo hoo, I am shopping without being tagged' emotion
But, I do get lonely once in a while when I see many couples holding hands and smiling
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I don't feel a need for a boyfriend
I enjoy being with boys, as friends
I like boys, I don't love them deep enough
I don't like breaking hearts, I'm so sorry to the one I dated years back
I didn't know what I wanted, maybe it was a relationship but I wasn't comfortable, I lost my freedom
I want to be friends with boys, act tough to boys, be a caring big sister to guys out there, be a little ruffian to big bros
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I'm still not matured to have a boyfriend :-
1. Am disgusted with feeding BF and GF in public eateries (sorry, just my childish feeling)
2. Touching hands, arms and elbows as cuddles and encouragement in public
Ps// Part of the reason I broke up with my ex was he always wanted to hold my hand in SCHOOL when I was a prefect (unbecoming of a red tie girl). He always sits beside me in class, though we're not of the same class when the teacher wasn't in.
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I am still childish. I can kick off my shoes and run all over the place with my foot black as soot and being care less. Which boy would dare date me? Only little boys would love me (I speak from experience). Matured boys would want a lady who acts like an adult who speaks well and carries herself well, dresses well, a person who they hope to be married with.
BUT I do love children. I hope to have children someday =)
